TENDER GARDENS

f8c2f0e68feebdaf988f489fb9583cecWe’ve come a long way since we started Tender Mercies last June.  In the last nine months God has guided our hands in helping others during the loss of their child(ren).  We’ve been a source for memory boxes and other cherishable items donated to the parents and families, we’ve hosted our first of many memorial events, and we’ve been able to meet with and talk through some of the most heartbreaking stories ever told by grieving parents.  We have made life long friends through this foundation and we have started to open Southern Illinois up to a new community of support.  With your support and God’s will, together we have been brought to a place where we will be able to help families for a long, long time to come.  There is no doubt though that God has so much more in store for Tender Mercies and Southern Illinois.  Things we probably can’t even imagine right now.

One of our long term goals since we started TMFSI was to provide a safe and comforting resting place for children sleeping in Christ.  It is one of the hardest things a parent will ever do to lay their child to rest, but we know just how important those moments are.  It is more likely that parents will be faced with the decision on where they might bury their child only moments before or after their passing than it is that they have a plan in place for such occasions.  Some have family plots that are available to them and some have not even had the discussion for themselves, let alone their children.  There are visitors to our area that do not plan to stay.  There are those that simply cannot afford to purchase a forever place their child.

This is why we are excited to build Tender Gardens, a resting place for children and babies in our area.  We envision a beautiful garden with the most peaceful landscaping.  Imagine a weeping willow blowing ever so softly in the wind and the flowers of spring and summer bringing a little peace to the soul as you take one step after another into a world you hoped you would never see.  A fountain that you can hear gently in the background flowing peacefully like a creek winds through the rocks and then throughout there are statues reminding us that our babies are safe and home in Jesus’ arms.  Tender Gardens will be a peaceful place.  A place where you could sit and hear natures lullaby keep you while your sweet baby sleeps.  God has placed the vision of this tranquil place in our hearts to offer to anyone that may need it.

This year we have found that those we’ve been able to touch through Tender Mercies, as well as those that have been affected in the past or through others stories, have found it in their hearts to help us in our mission to grow Tender Mercies and all God calls us to do.  We have decided that any donation that has been made as a memorial in the name of a loved one will be dedicated to funding Tender Gardens.  We would like to honor donations and will promise to incorporate them into the gardens in some way.

At this time we are in the very beginning stages and we are currently searching for the perfect property.  If you have, or know someone might have, two to three acres available we would be interested in talking with you.  Once we have the site chosen we will th1513652-bigthumbnailen begin designing the garden and begin our fundraising efforts to accomplish all that such a garden requires.

In the meantime, we will continue doing what God has called on us to do and be there for those that need us.  Thank you to anyone who has ever shared one of our posts, talked with others about Tender Mercies, attended an event, sponsored and event, donated your time and talents to making the memory items that are so special for the families, and especially those that keep us in your prayers.  You have made all the difference and have allowed us to be there for others we may have never had an opportunity to otherwise.  May God bless you all.

-Autumn, Kasey & Lauren

tendermericesfoundation@gmail.com

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A REMEMBRANCE EVENT

The day was beautiful despite the gamble we know October weather can bring. The sun was shining, the wind blew softly and you could hear the fallen leaves wrestling on the ground.

It was a perfectly wonderful Thursday evening in a Southern Illinois October that we received for what would become the first Tender Mercies remembrance event.

You could hear laughter as the children played on the grounds and you could see hugs everywhere you turned.

Smiles.

Tears.

Real conversations.

Anyone could have been pulled into the moment we were sharing that evening.

As night fell you could begin to see the soft candle glow shine so sweetly on the faces of the families as they released a lantern for their child(ren).  Sure, tears fell, but only if you were there could you truly realize that those tears were good. They were healing and some had finally made their way out after having been pushed so deep, for so long.

Then, small tears of joy from heaven fell in the form of raindrops and not one person would mind. We smiled. We embraced it and we found peace.

When we started Tender Mercies Foundation in June we had visions of helping others. At first it was by providing memory items and perhaps monetary support to families planning their goodbyes. It was very clear that they would appreciate those things but sometimes, just sometimes like these, we need a way to acknowledge that we hurt and that our child was gone.

October 15, 2016 gave us that.

It gave us the proof that the pain is real, wide-spread and needing an outlet for healing. We now know that there is no greater gift than acknowledgement.

We hope that you are able to enjoy this first round of pictures of the evening by Whimsey Photography.  These pictures may be used however you wish.  We do ask that you consider tagging us when used on Facebook so that we can help bring awareness to this cause.

Until next year, God bless and keep you.

 

IF IT DOESN’T SCARE YOU; IT ISN’T WORTH IT.

If it doesn’t scare you; it isn’t worth it. 

Or at least that is what we kept saying as we headed towards the local radio station to promote Tender Mercies and the upcoming remembrance event this morning.   If we are to be completely honest and transparent here, we are just learning how to speak at public events and in promotional situations.  It is not our second nature.  We are so very grateful for the opportunities to talk with others at our events and to thank guests for their attendance and also to offer a piece of what TMFSI has set out to do in its mission.  We are thankful for moments like this morning when we are able to reach thousands of people over the air to help encourage attendance at our events that are designed to support and lift those up that are grieving.  It does not escape us that we do have a long way to go with what may be considered a proper delivery of information, but we promise we are working on that.  In the meantime we will continue to pray, practice and put ourselves into these positions because no matter the delivery, the information is important.  It is truly more important then the nervous hands, butterfly stomachs and shy voices.  To help others is not something we are willing to second guess.  We will push and with God’s help, we will become more comfortable in this.  Until then, we ask for your grace and acceptance and encourage you to look past our nerves and open your heart to the mission of TMFSI.

These are the interviews aired 9/10/15:

News Radio WJPF

New Country Z100

Tender Lights 2015

PAINTING, ARCHERY, FISH & SUPPORT

We can’t lie that the last month has been a little insane for us at TMFSI.  It is an exciting thing to see the outpouring of support we have seen from the area and in the attendance at our fundraising events.

Due to the overwhelming response to Painting with Purpose, we hosted Painting with Purpose – Round 2 on August 22nd where we also had another astounding response.  With over 70 women in attendance we had such a wonderful time and were able to raise over $1,600 for TMFSI.  Again, we wouldn’t have been able to do it without our sponsors, Chris DeShazo of Spectrum Graphics and Von Jakob Vineyards.

PaintPurposeRoundTwoInvitation

On August 29th, along with Kevin’s Archery Center in Ava, IL, TMFSI hosted our first archery tournament.  It was a wonderful turnout with 46 shooters!  Followed by a fish fry the event raised just over $2,000.

Tournament Flyer

Here is our list of winners from the tournament:

LEADERBOARD
NAME TOTAL SCORE
OPEN
FIRST PLACE DARREL WESTERMAN 328
SECOND PLACE CASEY POE 316
MENS BOWHUNTER
FIRST PLACE JEREMY  MULVANEY 303
SECOND PLACE LONNIE SHEPHERD 299
WOMENS BOWHUNTER
FIRST PLACE JACQEUELINE LEHMAN 299
SECOND PLACE CRYSTAL MULVANEY 297
TRADITIONAL
FIRST PLACE 0 0
SECOND PLACE 0 0
YOUTH
FIRST PLACE JOSLYN MINNICK 201
SECOND PLACE TY DOAN 180

FROM THE HEART

Without volunteers, the dreams of what TMFSI will become couldn’t be realized.  It takes many hands and many  hearts to accomplish the goals we are setting forth in this foundation and it will take many more over the years as we grow together and break the silence.  Last night we opened up for our very first volunteer committee meeting.  We wanted to not only have a personal connection to those who want to be involved, for whatever their reasons are, but also to share why we are doing what we are doing here.  We were able to discuss several events we have coming up and to gain new insights or ideas from others.  The meeting went very well and we are certain that we will soon be known throughout this region as a place where anyone that has been affected by this will be able to come and talk, be among those who understand and perhaps find healing in volunteering as well.  All that said, we were very happy to see Megan Korando join our team.  Megan experienced a loss last fall and we knew that she has been working in the area to help the community of women and families struggling through their losses.  I want to first allow Megan to share her story with you:

Thursday, September 25, 2014 was a morning not unlike any other fall morning around our home. The crops were ready to be harvested and I was working on the final touches of what was to be our daughter, Blair’s, nursery. I fought back the nagging worry that something wasn’t right and double checked my hospital bags and prepared the car seat to install after returning home from what was to be my last routine appointment before our pre-op appointment the following week.  Blair was scheduled to be delivered via repeat c-section on October 8th, just three days before her due date but the on again and off again contractions I had been having over the last few days told me she had other plans.  I dropped our son, Wade, off at my mother in law’s and made my way to Carbondale.  Upon entering the room I can recall the first thing I told Kelly, my NP, was that I was almost worried over the weekend because I hadn’t been feeling Blair like I had been. Because she was breech, had dropped, and the age old myth that babies slow down at the end, I stuffed my fears away and decided that I was still feeling her move, it was just different.  The moment Kelly put the Doppler on my swollen belly and I heard nothing but silence I knew my worst fear had become our tragic reality.  Holding on to hope she grabbed a different Doppler and checked to see if they could get me in for a quick ultrasound. I held my faith that we would get in there and see her wiggling away and we would all laugh about the scare she gave us.  As we walked down the hallway to the ultrasound room it hit me. In one moment I nearly dropped to my knees and everything became blurred. I can remember Kelly asking me who she could call just in case, giving her Matthew and my mothers numbers, and the deep fog that began to settle in.  The moment they put the wand on and our daughter came up on the screen my world came crashing down.  In one statement, five words, my life would never be the same. Our little girls heart had stopped beating and for the time being we had no clue why.  My family arrived, joined me one by one in sorrow, and we began discussing what our options were.  Matthew and I chose to go home, digest what was happening, and to call when we had made our decision. By that evening we had decided to go ahead and schedule the c-section for the following day, Friday, September 26th, at noon. We spent the evening with a house full of family and friends unsure of what to do but surround us with their love. By eleven that night everyone had cleared out and I was trying to get some rest when I noticed the contractions had began to pick up. After timing them for an hour they were as far apart as eight minutes and as close as four minutes and I called Dr. Gates at 12:17am to inform him of what was going on. They weren’t very intense and he suggested a hot bath or shower to see if that slowed them down and if not to come in.  As I drew my bath water I noticed some changes that told me we needed to go.  In a matter of no time they quickly picked up and we where on our way to the hospital.  One of my sisters-in-law was in the car with us and decided to call an ambulance who requested we stop and wait for them. I told Matthew, no way, we will never make it. As we came into Carbondale my water broke and in an instant Blair began to make her way into this world. We met an ambulance who rushed me the final blocks to the hospital where Blair would finish her birth at 1:33am on September 26th. After she was born it was clear what took our darling daughter from us. She had a perfect storm of cord issues that came together in the worse way. Her cord was wrapped around her neck three times and she had a very tight knot in it.  She was perfect and beautiful in every way.  Holding the lifeless shell of our daughter I knew in that moment she would always be a part of me. Though she would never take a breath on this earth I would breathe every day for her.  Her short life gave me so many wonderful gifts. The grace and the compassion to be able to live life as completely as I can.  Through our faith and our family we have turned our darkest days into something so bright and beautiful. Because I live, Blair lives and each day she gives me the strength to put one foot in front of the other and rejoice in knowing that one day we will be together again. 

Megan shared her story with the group last night and left us all in tears, as you can imagine.  She reminded us, once again, why we are doing this.  It was when she announced that she would like to continue Blair’s Cuddle Run through TMFSI, she had funds left over from the first event and that she would like to donate them to TMFSI, that the only sound you could hear was tear drops falling.  Megan gave TMFSI a check for $4,772.89!  Speechless.  We are very excited to work with such an absolutely wonderful person.  If you get a chance to meet Megan, you will surely understand why.

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Megan Korando’s donation to TMFSI. 6/22/15

Painting with Purpose

When considering what it would take to make Tender Mercies Foundation a success, we all knew that fundraising would play a very important role.  Without the help of others we knew that we wouldn’t be able to fulfill the purpose we set out for.  We knew that doing this would take a lot from us.  A lot of time.  A lot of effort.  A lot of ideas.

We knew it was worth it.

It wasn’t long before we were throwing out fundraiser suggestions though.  One of the first ideas was to have a painting party.  Lauren talked with Christine  Deshazo at Spectrum Graphics, Kyle Fager at Brews Brothers Taproom and Patty Koenig at Country Insurance.  Before we knew it a date was set, a to-list was created and we had our very first sponsor committed.  Christine had agreed to prepare the canvas’, provide the paint/brushes and teach all the participants how to paint their masterpiece.  Kyle agreed to let us use the lounge at Brew’s Brothers Taproom for the event and not only set it all up, but cleaned it as well.  Patty was our very first monetary sponsor.  She agreed to buy all the canvas’, drink tickets and food for the event.  The donations made by all three were huge and very, very appreciated.  More than they may ever know.

So, the invitation was posted on our Facebook page.  It took about 5 hours before we not only sold out, but had a waiting list formed.  We were shocked, but ever so happy.

With everything lining up perfectly we spent an evening meeting with Christine to chalk the outlines on the canvas’.  Talk about a blast.  We had a system in place between the four of us, whipping them out  one by one and unfortunately, it went all too quick.  We wanted to find reasons to stay just a bit longer.  Christine was the perfect hostess and made us feel so welcome.

The day of the event Patty started getting everything ready at the venue.  Kyle had already arranged the room so Patty, Lauren and Kelsey Blake were able to come in and start setting the tables, placing tablecloths over them and adding sweet touches like Hershey’s chocolate kisses for the girls to snack on.  She brought in so much food and she even had special drink tickets printed up for the girls to use.  She went way above and beyond.  Kyle showed us how to get music going and all we had to do was wait for the event to start.

As everyone arrived we had a chance to talk together and let them pick their seats and a picture to paint.  The mood was so good and we all truly appreciated each others company.  Unfortunately, at events like this someone should talk about the cause and what their participation means.  I think the three of us stalled and pointed at one another as long as we possibly could before someone had to say something and start the party.  I got the short end of the stick and as nervous as can be, introduced TMFSI and thanked everyone from coming.  There was emotion in my nerves and while I wish I could do it over and could have been a little more eloquent, everyone was curtious and respectful.  Thank you for that.  In hindsight, enough credit wasn’t given to our sponsors.  Thank you again Patty Koenig, Kyle Fager and Christine Deshazo.

Then, the painting began.

Each and every one of the pictures, while stenciled the same, were gorgeously different.  To walk around and watch each painting come to life in such unique ways, showing a piece of each of the artists, was an honor.  It is something to appreciate.  The diversity.  The appreciation of others ideas and styles.  The camaraderie.

In all, we were able to raise $985 for TMFSI that night but not without each one of you and our sponsors.  Thank you to anyone who participated or sent donations with friends.  Thank you Christine for sharing your talents and time.  Kyle, thank you for providing us such a wonderful place to gather and for the donation on top of it.  And, Patty, thank you so much for purchasing all of the canvas, drinks and food.  Together, we touched many lives not only that night, but many to come.

Stay tuned for “Painting with Purpose – Round II”  on August 21, 2015.  Until then, here are some photos taken from the event.

 

 

TENDER DONATIONS

We received our first wedding dress donation last night and we couldn’t help but get a lullaby gown going.  The dress was donated by the very sweet Mandy Rich and when it got to my hands it was a plastic wrapped cardboard keepsake box all sealed and prepared for preservation.  At first I carried it to the location it would make its transformation without really thinking twice but when it came time to actually break the seal of the plastic, I almost couldn’t do it. IMG_20150708_190131086I  think that opening anything preserved will make you second guess the choice to do it.  This dress was preserved because there were memories and hopes attached to it.  It wasn’t just a random dress worn for a random night.  It was a dress of celebration and love.  It would be that same thought that finally allowed me to make the first cut and open the box.  This dress that once served a beautiful purpose of love, will have a second chance at doing that for many, many people. When finally opened, the gown was laid to perfection inside this beautiful white box.  It was folded just right so that all the detail of the lace and beading was shown.  It had tissue paper with it as if you were opening a present. We pulled the gown out in awe.  We hung it on a hanger and much like a bride would do on her wedding day, we stood and admired it.  My mom and I just looked at each other as if to say “I’m not cutting this dress”.  It was a few photos later that we took it down, laid it out very carefully on the ground and started mapping the first cut. We ran our hands along the dress from the top to the bottom.  Over all of its seams and all the details, until we landed on the perfect spot.  A small portion of the train soon was folded and prepared for the first cut.  Just like that, there was no turning back.  We cut and sewed, added detailing around the edges and slowly but surely we were holding a beautiful gown for a beautiful baby.  IMG_20150708_204007272 We took more fabric from the train and began working on the bonnet.  Only the tiniest of heads could fit in it, although we know we will be making them much smaller still yet.  We enjoyed the process together.  The mood was quiet and humble, yet we were happy for the gift.  This wedding dress, and its new beginning as one of many lullaby gowns, will now not only fulfill its purpose of celebration, but its new purpose in comforting sorrow and clothing heavens angels. Thank you so much Mandy for your donation.  You have provided many gifts to many people you may never meet.  We hope God blesses you in many ways as well. IMG_20150708_204243696  -Autumn Doan, Tender Mercies Foundation of Southern Illinois.